childeofthehunt

oh she's bleeding now from the hole in her chest the gaping agony of it a single tear is all that falls and now she is no more do you feel any guilt? any remorse? at all? and still you hold it her heart in your hands im suprised its not still beating you toss your burden with a careless flick and wash the blood away you think no one saw but i did, im always here i saw everything you murdered her and oh the blood its still on your hands my friend no matter how much you scrub it will never wash off i hope you dream of her i hope you see her face contorted with shock as you ripped her life away

you hiss your hateful monologue everynight in my ear while i sleep, while i dream Im sure i keen in my sleep for you in fitful cries whisper your name why cant i let you go? ive never felt this before the wrenching agony that wells up in my chest every morning when i wake because your memory is banished then banished to the recesses of my mind to steal in when im far away when my defences are down why cant i let you go? im a traitor when i dream i dream of you everynight pretty whispers and sugar words i know its all a lie but it aches that dull thud in my chest its gone when im asleep because your there someone help m

i cant stand being this cliche but i thought you loved me i thought you were in love with me how could i get it so wrong? was i so blinded in my need for you that i didnt even notice you werent the person i thought you were and i cant stand it that i dont hate you because i should i really should look what youve done to me! im here on another planet im here all alone! how could you say that to me! you know you were my only and i thought i was yours well now i know better and im much stronger for it your hypocrisy is sickening you physically make me sick ill win this war on my own me against this alien world the one you c

i shouldnt have told you i should have fixed this by myself, on my own i could still have you but then the guilt it would have killed me should have could have would have but i didnt and now youre gone im not alone i still have a part of you i'll always have a little piece of you can i look at that piece for the rest of my life? that scares me, im so scared no one can help me now im on my own, this is so hard im fighting with my values and morals i dont think i can do this to you i dont think i can care for something so precious as us but then i dont think i can kill you, kill us what am i going to do? confusion reigns

if you are all wondering why i keep putting my poetry in the description box, its because i like having the poetry there, i really have nothing to write when im describing my own writing. Plus i thought it might leave a few of you wonderring what the hell was going on.....

*sigh

i wonder, it seems to me that i think too much

your spiderwebs are here at the back of my mind i cant tell anymore wether im asleep or awake i never seem to stop dreaming my feet are so cold theres ice here a strange place to be in the back of my mind they are rather pretty you know they drift in the breeze whispering ancient spells lonely incantations of another time another place its so cold here